Light of Some Kind

I wish I didn't have this nervous laugh
wish I didn't say half the stuff I say
wish I could just learn to cover my tracks
guess I'm not concerned enough with getting away with it

cause every time I try to hold my tounge
it slips like a fish from the line
they say if you're gonna play
you should learn how to play dumb
cause I can't bring myself to waste your time

we both know
what I've been doing
I've been intentionally bad at lying
and you're the only one I ever let see through me
and I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
and I hope I never improve my game
I'd rather have these things weigh on my mind
at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind
there must be a light of some kind

must have blown a fuse or something
cause it was so dark in my mind
she came up to me with the sweetest face
and she was holding a light of some kind
and I still think of you as my boyfriend
I don't think this is the end of the world
and maybe you should follow my example
go meet yourself a really nice girl

cause we both know
what I've been doing
I've been intentionally bad at lying
and you're the only boy I ever let see through me
and I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
and I hope I never improve my game
I'd rather have these things weigh on my mind
and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind
I want a light of some kind

in the end the whole world comes down to just a few people
for you it comes down to one
but nobody ever asked me if I thought I could be
everything to someone
and there's a crowd of people harbored in every person
there are so many roles that we play
and you've decided to love me for eternity
I'm still deciding who I want to be today

we both know
what i've been doing
i've been intentionally bad at lying
and you're the only boy I ever let see through me
and I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
and I hope I never improve my game
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind
I want a light of some kind
I want a light of some kind
give me a light of some kind
I want a light of some kind