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Dear Matthew
I like you a lot
I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and I respect that
I'd like to know that if you're ever single in the future and you want to come visit me in California I will be open to spending time with you and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song

Dear Jonathan
I liked you too much
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely about themselves
And you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
I used to say "The more tragic, the better"
The truth is whenever I think of the early 90's your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday

Dear Terrance
I love you muchly
You've been nothing but open-hearted and emotionally available and supportive and nurturing and consumately there for me
I kept drawing you in and pushing you away
I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you
For the first time you were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself
What was wrong with me?

Dear Marcus
You rocked my world
You had a charismatic way about you with the women
And you got me seriously thinking about spiritually
And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass
But I could never feel relax and looked out for around you though
And that stopped us from going any further than we did
And it's kinda too bad 'cause we could've had much more fun

Dear Lou
We learned so much
I realize we won't be able to talk for sometime
And I understand that as I do you
The long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
We were together during a very tumultuos time in our life
I will always have your back and be curious about you
About your career
Your whereabouts